I think you hit it with trying to get your self-esteem back. YOU DESERVE BETTER THAN THIS! I've said it before, I'll keep repeating it until you get it. Why are you okay with someone that only wants to be with you if you're thin enough? If you let him spend like a single guy? That acts like a 2 yearold if he doesn't get the affection he thinks he's entitled to? That can't handle a drive to and from work? Who is willing to move to "I want a S or D when he doesn't get his way?
You're married to a spoiled brat child of a man. Why are you ok with that?
So the question is not how do not want him, the question is why DO you want him. I think it's wrapped up in your lack of self-esteem. So focus on that. Get into IC. Let the meds start to work. Read books about self worth. Get your groove thang back.
The key is that you need to not want him back until he addresses his own shortcomings. You deserve better.
Last edited by Steve85; 02/20/2002:14 PM.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018