To be clear I do NOT want a D. I hate this. He was my best friend, the love of my life, the person I thought I'd grow old with. We had plans. He was going to retire this month and he'd work less hours, we'd have more time together, etc. We were going to build a house once D14 graduated high school, travel, all of it. Now I'll be working until I'm 75 and living in the ghetto.
The decisions above that I've made were for me and my kids. Can't get alimony without filing for D. Can't get a D without grounds. Doing taxes with him would be a major setback for me emotionally so if you factor in IC and meds what I paid is probably a wash.
Yeah I want him to suffer but I don't want to be the one to provoke him if that makes sense? He has no idea I deleted emails and texts but he will know about the rest of this. I do not like conflict and I still love him. Sad that it's come to this.
