1st Anniversary of Limbo, Indecisive WAH (part 2)

[Pommy99]

The reason I'm just so ok with him going is that the power dynamics in our relationship are completely skewed right now. He practically holds all the power and he unfortunately knows that. The only things I have power over are the muffin shop, our bed, and what I'm willing to share with him. Because our space is small and he's decided he can't live a life without me in it even if it's just as his friend even in the case of sharing things I have no ability to properly put up boundaries, or cut off contact, or make him see what he's about to lose. He has to leave to miss me, value me, miss us, see the value in our relationship, or at the very least for me to continue on my journey to remembering who I was and finding her without his influence. I can neither win him back or move on with him looming ever present in my house. He needs to go so we can heal individually, and maybe someday together. I know that isn't going to fix the pain you're going through, and I'm so sorry for that. But I just wanted you to have some food for thought.

wayfarer I really needed to read this from someone else because this is what is starting to go round in my head. Not just the bit about what the distance might do for him, but what it will do for ME. I have previously been fearful of him going, that he might not have any regrets, that OW might appear and it’s game over, but now I feel like he HAS to go. We both need to breathe clean air. Neither of us can move forward whilst we’re going round in circles. I need to find my original self too, and introduce her to current self, and then make v3 out of all the good bits!