Not much sleep. Called my mom at 6am. Not sure I could get out of bed and go to work today.
H comes home. I'm on the phone... he gets a call and takes to other room.
When we are both off the phone H asks me about work yesterday - will there be consequences for me having not gone back yesterday. I said in 30yr I should be allowed a 1/2 day for mental health but it can be an issue. My employer is out of town and ultimately not much can happen if I am not there.
I then asked my H about his day while he is unpacking cooler. He talks about it. He says more than I thought he would. He is exhausted as am I. When it clear he is finished talking I go to another room.
I heard my H talking in the bathroom... I hadn't heard him so I walked back in and asked if he had said anything... he kept his back to me and said don't worry about it. I let it go.
He showers and goes to bed. He leaves the HOMES MAGAZINE at his spot on the kitchen table. Its not a shock as I already knew he was looking.
My 180 today was being polite and friendly.
So I have to keep it friendly and happy here. I have to detach and act as if.
I am taking it minute by minute... would appreciate some words to encourage me in the right direction.
