I'm all over the place.

Why if he hates the drive and is so miserable is he still here?

He clearly has friends to stay with, his parents. Why keep here and say you will stay until S of D is final?

Why say you want amicable and then start changing where your check is deposited to? You say one minute you've talked into an atty and have divorce papers drawn up... the next you haven't made appt. We will go together.

You say you haven't changed any beneficiary on your acct or life insurance and dont plan to do so... I'm sole beneficiary. Your not changing your will. You feel even if we file you can do so anytime.... but yet you hadn't planned on it?

You changed your acct passwords. You are not being transparent.

You are sleep deprived and have memory issues sometimes.

BELIEVE NOTHING THEY SAY AND ONLY 50% OF WHAT THEY

I was struggling today. On the phone in another room. You came out clearly I've woken you up again and you get a bowl AND 2 spoons and you invite me to eat sherbet with you. Is it guilt?


I sat.and.ate.with you.

You dont want to see my tears. It's the wrong emotion for where we are at... too little to late.

I know you are all trying to be helpful and supportive and you see me spinning circles. I just need lots more words of encouragement... I know what I need 180s and GAL. It's all I can do to try to get to.work tomorrow. I feel.so alone.