Therapy for me today. It is been something that I look forward to. My therapist is onboard with helping me navigate this situation, and stands with me in standing for my marriage. I spoke about the little thawed moments I have been experiencing lately. She is very effective in helping me to dissect and not get overly excited. So with this all being said, I am sad tonight. I just feel that this is so daunting. I am not unaware of the fact that since the BD in May, there has been a lot of positives, especially since the beginning of the year. My therapist says I need to continue with GAL and to practice patience. It’s just so frustrating! I know today I can quit the R and file, and sometimes I fantasize how that might go. I don’t want that at all, but sometimes I feel that that would be the only way to have H pay attention. I know that is stupid, but sometimes it makes me feel in control. Every day I remind myself that I am one day closer to this being over. Today for whatever reason that is hard to do. I feel like I am almost as confused as my H. He responds politely to me, there is no outward evidence that there is a new OW, and as I have mentioned, he has actually brought home dinner to share. Every time he has these little moments, he retreats for a day or two. I don’t push and I try to not react. I know this can take a long time and patience is key. Does anyone or has anyone else experienced this?
