Originally Posted by job
...but you will know when to pull the trigger on the paperwork for sure.


At the moment this seems hard to believe I will ever be that sure. But I'll take your word for it!


Originally Posted by OwnIt
Grace, are you doubting his desire to make change or his ability to make it? It seems he has a desire, but may not have the strength.


I think it's his ability. I really don’t think he has it in him for the long haul. He is going to have to break life long patterns. But, apparently his T is doing CBT with him, so I think this is good. But doubting his ability goes totally against my beliefs that I should trust God completely. If I did trust God completely, I shouldn’t have one worry or concern about this. That’s a bit troubling to me.

Originally Posted by OwnIt
Keep reading that TMAK thread. You are at a point with his lovey dovey words where you have expectations and are growing impatient with how long he is taking.


Yep. That’s me. Impatient. Expectations? Probably. Yes, most certainly they creep in.

OwnIt - Could you direct me to the TMAK thread? A refresher would be good for me.


Originally Posted by OwnIt
Maybe the answer is to forget about him and look deep within yourself. What do you want for you?


I want to forget about him, but I can’t seem to stop thinking about him. Wondering about him. I’m holding on for a reason. Maybe I need to discover what that reason is. It would be freeing, I think.

More to consider. But, I want to focus on the task at hand. My meeting with my attorney tomorrow, and legalizing a financial agreement.

Perhaps that will be the first step to a bit more freedom from my focus on H.

Grace


M: 56
H: 57
S: 22
D: 20

H Moved out: 10/1/18