If you aren't sure that you are ready to go through with the divorce, then don't do it at the moment. You've got plenty of time and who knows....anything can happen between now the date the divorce is finalized. Maybe you are holding out a bit of hope that he'll wake up and realize what he is going to lose.
You will know when the time is right to file. It may not be today, tomorrow or next month...but you will know when to pull the trigger on the paperwork for sure.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
