Tomorrow I have a phone conference with my attorney about the post-nup vs. marriage settlement agreement. I have been doing a lot of thinking about why I am postponing what I believe (at least at the moment), the inevitable.
I'm doubting H's desire to really make any significant changes.
I wonder about his desire to not D at this time being completly self-serving (perhaps likely), and isn't related to his potential desire to reconcile at all.
I feel like he is trying to keep me as plan B. But, my GAL, and refusal to let him move back home should have told him I'm not, right? So then, why do I feel like I am setting my own self up to be plan B. Just a nagging feeling that won't go away.
I am doubting the possibility of ever being able to trust H enough to even begin reconciliation. Why, then, would I want to post-pone D?
***Sigh*** Perhaps all questions many of us here go through the process of finding answers to.
Maybe my sitch is a bit different because H isn't the one who wants to file for D.
H has been out of the house 1 yr, 4 1/2 months. That seems like a long time.
I often feel like I am getting closer to 100% certainty I want a D. But I can't bring myself to do it (yet).
