Maybe email Virginia in the morning and see if they'll give you a discount. I think if you just take that and follow it, and know that your situation is not hopeless and things can change, you will have a plan and having a plan makes things a lot easier. The fact that you haven't demeaned yourself when you were told about this is a huge plus, since you don't have to make that ground back up.
I'm telling you. It can turn around. Mine felt as hopeless as you could ever imagine. It was the same thing. He was done, he was mad at me, he had a fantasy of this great life he was going to have. It didn't happen. The universe has a way of correcting these imbalances if you trust yourself and your intuition.
I feel a mission to help you as much as I can. Silence and keeping your thoughts to yourself are the best things you can do right now.
