My mind just cycles on this stuff. I’m thinking about the last four years and all that I’ve tried to do and nothing has worked. All the counseling I’ve set up. All the changes I’ve tried to make.
Also the trips that i wanted to take her on that she wouldn’t go on or the spoiled trip we took, because the OM was texting her.
I’m starting to think that being able to go back and reread my own thread is going to be helpful to watch how I bounce around from one spot to the next.
Detachment would seem to make sense and be the only way forward. Loving detachment, I guess.
I shouldn’t schedule anything else for us, obviously. (We have a date that was scheduled tonight before the divorce bomb drop that we are going on and we have a theater show in May and June).
We should probably split those tickets and take a friend instead. That makes my heart hurt a ton to even think about.
We have two family trips planned. One is a week long spring break in April. The other is an overnight trip to watch a sports event. At the moment I’m planning to keep those.
