H is out tonight and will likely not even come home (not surprised since he did not even deny there is an OW when I confronted him about it after 2nd BD). I am so done with his antics. I'm not sure if he is purposely trying but he sure knows how to zap the love out of a person. I would be lying if I said I love him right now (other than the Christian love I would have for any random person).

The kids and I are just hanging out tonight but we may take a short trip tomorrow. I had to work late and am exhausted. Several friends, both male and female, have sent me V Day wishes. I did not get around to spoiling myself like I had planned, but it is never too late. I owe myself some chocolate covered strawberries and prosecco.

I do feel like I have taken some power back by establishing these boundaries. I have to protect myself emotionally and physically. I told H I think we should separate, but he prefers getting the D without separating. If he files, I will deal with that then. In the meantime, I am just making the best of every moment that I can.

Last edited by HesAble; 02/15/20 12:59 AM.
H and Me - Both 45; S13 and D9
BD - 11/2019
Married 14 years; Together 20 years