Learning how to stand, hope, & keep moving

[may22]

I don't need to get ahead of myself. I'm scrambling to solve problems on the route, before I've even reached the problem! Apparently I have a fear of lack of preparation, too?

This is me!! Totally. I'm working on letting some of that go too, trying to focus on where I am today and the problems I'm facing now, not the ones that may or may not happen at some point in the future. That can drive you bananas.

Researching always helps me, as does making lists and breaking things down into more manageable chunks-- wondering if one of those strategies could help? For instance, I bet recording your current expenses, while not fun, will be a huge help as you move forward. Maybe researching car insurance can help too-- getting more information on any of these unknowns is taking action and something within your control. Anyway, it seems like you're really doing all the right things, even as you have all those completely normal fears/anxieties of what may come next, especially around things that are not within your control.

Hang in there-- thinking of you! I looked up the cinnamon roll recipe-- looks fabulous. King Arthur Flour is actually where I bought my sourdough starter from (they mail it to you) and I LOVE it. They send a super easy recipe along with. Definitely recommend it for you if you're interested!

Also, I did read Station Eleven... soooo scary. I'm re-reading Spillover by David Quammen and just bought Crisis in the Red Zone, Richard Preston's new book about the more recent Ebola epidemic. I have failed at meditating this week but every day is a new opportunity, right? Another book I'm reading that you might like about meditating is Joy on Demand.

Anyway, hoping you have a great day and weekend. Know that there are all of us here for you. (((HUGS)))