I have no idea if the AD will talk to him...interestingly, he just added me as a Facebook friend...lol. Brook and Buddy know each other but they aren’t good friends so I doubt Buddy will say anything to him about it. Brook hasn’t been in contact with me since Saturday so at this point, I’ve pretty much written him off. Maybe one day I’ll hear from him and maybe I won’t. The one thing I know for sure is that he won’t be hearing from me so he’s on his own with this one. It’s disappointing but not much I can do about it.
I admire your resolve and detachment. Good job!
Originally Posted by DejaVu6
XH texted me a picture of D12 dressed up for her Valentine’s Day dance tomorrow. Looks like she is wearing OW’s clothes. I noticed that there are a bunch of pictures of the two of them on the wall next to where D12 was standing. Made me a bit nauseated, TBH. How to legitimize an affair... Take a bunch of different pictures of the two of you and put them on the wall to try to make it look like you’ve been together for years. And my kids have to look at them every day. There are no words...
You can put a pile of stinky dog poo in a beautiful crystal bowl. Guess what, the smell remains.
Originally Posted by DejaVu6
Pretty much going out of my mind trying to mentally prepare for my interview next week. The more I read up on the things I need to know, the less I feel like I know and the more panicky I get. Really struggling to think of good examples for the behavioural interview. Even ran one rather confusing competency by a couple of supervisors today and they were scratching their heads. Neither of them had any idea how they would answer it. The best they could say is to try to be crystal clear about my thinking. At this point, there is nothing crystal clear about my thinking. Is this even worth the extra $8,000 a year? Not so sure...lol.
Maybe step back a bit and take a break to refresh? You'll probably go back to the prep with a clearer head. Just a thought xoxo
M 20+ T25+ S ~15.5 (BD) BD 4/6/15 D 12/23/16
"Someone I loved once gave me A box full of darkness. It took me years to understand, That this too, was a gift." ~ Mary Oliver
It’s important to realize you are still loved and cared about.
Hey, the interview - relax a bit. You aren’t doing this for the extra $8000. You are applying because you are competent and would enjoy the challenges and satisfaction from such an opportunity. You know more than you realize.
DnJ
Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.
Thanks you two. Resolve and detachment are new things for me...lol. TBH...I’m a bit mad at myself for getting caught up in his talk about destiny and something happening between us. I still think he is a good guy. I just think that his upset over his XW’s possible affair with his friend surprised him and he got scared that he was starting something with me that he couldn’t deliver on in his state of mind. So rather than just tell me, he decided to stop talking to me altogether until he figures himself out. He did tell me that he was taking some time to work on himself so it’s not a total surprise but it still feels kind of rude that he’s not talking to me at all. So...IDK...he may get in touch with me when he’s feeling more grounded...if he does, I’m still not going to make any suggestions about us getting together. That is 100% up to him now. Gonna focus on preparing for this job interview and my upcoming tournament. Cannot wait!!! Twenty-eight more sleeps!!!
yeah and the reach out on FB ... wanting to stay in touch but not commit to anything, even a conversation? hmm. best to focus on more important things, you!
M 20+ T25+ S ~15.5 (BD) BD 4/6/15 D 12/23/16
"Someone I loved once gave me A box full of darkness. It took me years to understand, That this too, was a gift." ~ Mary Oliver
Feeling pretty down today. No particular reason...lots of little ones, I guess.
Pretty stressed out about this upcoming interview and feeling not very confident. Imposter Syndrome is alive and well in my head...lol.
Never really celebrated Valentine’s Day much or cared much about it but somehow not having anyone special in my life has me feeling kind of empty.
Brook has been a big fat disappointment. He told me he got divorced around the same time as me but I think maybe his marriage hasn’t been over as long as mine has. His reaction to his XW’s possible affair illustrates that and there are pictures of them on FB still wearing wedding rings last June. In August, he started posting inspirational quotes about life’s journey, change, etc...so it looks as if he is six months post separation/divorce at best. That’s not a lot of time so I guess he did me a favour disappearing. Still...I feel like we were becoming friends so it is hard not to take the radio silencelkkllklk personally.
And I miss Jack even though I know I did the right thing breaking up with him. But I do miss his hugs and his steady presence every weekend. And it kills me to know that he is sad and misses me and I can’t comfort him.... that I am the last person who can do that. I think that is what has gotten me down the most today for some reason. I guess when someone offers you love and you turn it down...because it isn’t enough...it feels selfish...and part of you wonders if you will ever be offered it again...by anyone. So...worst thoughts...written down. Feels only marginally better. (((HUGS))) to all. xo
I’m sorry you are feeling this way. This holiday does stink.
As far as Brooke, he’s just not the one. Especially right now. He came out of the gates too strong and probably because he is in a place where he is trying to heal himself through others right now. He has to deal with his own stuff. He hasn’t done the work.
As far as jack, we don’t take love just because it’s handed out. Jack is a bit codependent. And you showed him love by letting him go. It isn’t that his love isn’t enough. You know a lot of different factors go into a relationship to make to work too.
You will he offered love again. And you will be able to full embrace it when it’s true and under the right circumstances. I have doubt of this
Well since no one else has said it, and I'm pretty sure you mentioned it yesterday...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DV!!!
I can only imagine that having your birthday right after V-day can either make life all that much nicer (in good times) but a bit more depressing in bad. I know you are a hopeless romatnic and really want to be with someone but really, you can still have a great birthday.. And something tells me with your outgoing personality and ability to see the good in a large variety of people, you won't be spending many Valentines Days or birthdays within someone. And at least it wasn't a milestone B-day.
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DonH Midwest Me 56 WAW-EXW 55 Met 11/95 / Married 5/00 Bomb 6/20/05 / She Filed on 6/2/06 / Divorced on 10/9/06 4 who'd qualify as GF since D & dated about 25 women since D
Happy Birthday! Hope you are doing something special for yourself today.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
