Doing my thing and hope for the best

[may22]

Oh Wooba! Hugs. You are doing amazingly. I am so impressed that you made it through that whole conversation and evening with such poise and class. (Plus doing all of this with no school? Are the kids at home all day? How the heck are you managing???)

It seems to me like you've really turned a corner in how you deal with him. All that craziness, flipping back and forth-- I can just imagine you still cooking and going about your business while he bounces around you trying to get you to fight with him.

I even said I don’t want to deny it anymore but just want you to know that I don’t accept that as the truth. And he started to threaten me and said that “if you’re going to deny this I will take it personally because that is breaking the trust in this relationship, even though the trust is already broken.” I’m just thinking in my head like “wth is happening??? Do you even hear yourself??”

H: “I know what I heard. And if you deny it, I will file the papers right now! And things will get contentious!”
Me: .......(shaking my head while prepping food for tomorrow)

I can’t even remember how I got out of that part of the conversation. I didn’t concede though. Just sort of stopped arguing. Maybe he sensed that I wasn’t threatened.

This is the one that hit home for me... the breaking of the trust even though the trust is already broken" and you are able to pull back and think holy cow this guy is spinning, not get sucked up into the vortex of his craziness. That is awesome.