Weekly update. I am so glad that Yail suggested this.
So - we have had a better week. I mentioned H has been suggesting marriage therapists to me - emailing me their contents - and I haven't responded. Got a gentle challenge about that from Dilly (thank you) so I let him know I had the emails, would look at the counsellors and have a think, and could we make a decision at the weekend. So that feels better. I do want to be clear with the counsellor - in front of H - what my reluctance is about. I think I will frame this in a more positive, less critical way.
I guess these are my thoughts: 'I don't want to pay for the pleasure of listening to you whine and blame everything that's wrong with you, your life and our marriage on me. I'm bored of that.'
And a more positive way would be, 'our situation has been going on a long time. I think I understand the aspects of our marriage and lives together that aren't satisfactory to you. I'm here because I'd like to hear what specifics you want to change, and to work together to make that happen.'
Does that sound okay?
Other than that, I don't have much to report. We've been passing each other like ships in the night due to my work and GAL and his schedule, but that seems fine. He's been a little more affectionate that usual and checks in with me via text during the day. I feel a bit drained and wrung-out, but that's nothing to do with my H, it is because I am having a heavy time at work and it has been winter for at least a thousand years.
