In my state, infidelity bars you from obtaining alimony. I went to talk to a few good friends last night and the consensus was - she knows she was caught and is now looking to max out on child support money by trying to get sole custody. I reread some of sandi2's threads last night on how dark the WAS heart is - I feel like I real see this now; everything she does seems to be selfish and dollar related. I just cannot imagine doing what she's doing.
I continue to strive to make every interaction with my kids a positive on. I found a new therapist and have an appointment with her next week. I worked out last night and sweated my brains out at the CrossFit box - killed a lot of my anxiety.
We have our mediations ession tomorrow and I will not accept anything less than 50/50, even if it means going to court in the near future (which scares the bejesus out of me, but...it might be the start of getting my kids BACK).
I feel like I passed this threshold where I am thinking I don't want my WAS back. I am honestly struggling not to hate her for all of this. Hate is a strong word. As much as I want to forgive her and move on, I hate her for doing all of this to us 3.
