Thanks DnJ. Interview isn’t for another week so I will save your good luck for that day.
Valentine’s Day on Friday and my birthday the next day. Spending VDay with my kids as they are the most important Valentines in my life. Haven’t heard from Brook since Saturday and I don’t expect to. Whatever is going on with him, he clearly does not want my support and truth be told, I don’t really want to be that for him anyway. I’m too many people’s counsellor. He said he would get back in touch with me once he has figured himself out. I’m not holding my breath but I guess you never know. Timing is everything and this is clearly not the time.
Haven’t heard from Jack since Sunday. I think the talk we had was actually good for him. Not sure he had “closure” from the face to face conversation we had when we initially broke up. He didn’t say much at that time. Not sure he really GOT it... that our romantic relationship was basically over. Maybe he thought there was some wiggle room with that decision. Or maybe he didn’t think he would miss me the way that he does. I don’t really know but I think talking to me was helpful as he didn’t seem quite so upset at the end of it. Moving toward acceptance, I think. I do miss him though. He was super affectionate...always wanting to cuddle and be close to me. It was a nice feeling to have someone in my life again who wanted to be close to me.
Really looking forward to my pool tournament in March. It will be nice to get away and leave the real world behind. Gotta love Vegas for that...lol. Happy Tuesday all!!!
DV - I've only been to Vegas once. Had a great time.
I went to a Burlesque show off the strip with XW. Taxi dropped us off at a seedy looking bar, and the burlesque was in the back. The front was a beer-stained, smoke filled, terrible dive bar. (OK, I actually LOVE dive bars).
It was SO fun. Started with the more amateur folks, kind of awkward, figuring it out, sometimes not on the beat. Then it progressively got better and better until the more pro people came out. It went pretty late though, as I am secretly an 80 year old woman who wants to go to bed early.
It was such a funny memory. So very Vegas. XW was at first alarmed with a "WHERE did you take me!?!" expression. I had found the place on recommendation from a Burlesque professional I had worked with at a previous job. So I just trusted it to be okay. It was.
I kind of secretly love Vegas despite it being everything that is the antithesis of what I believe in. How many times have you been? Any favorite spots?
I am embarrassed to say how many times I’ve been to Vegas...lol. In my defense, the vast majority of my trips have been to compete in pool tournaments. I kind of lost track but I would say I’ve been close to 25 times. My sister and I call it our home away from home. I just like that when I go there, it is so vastly different from my day-to-day reality that I just forget I have one....lol. The thing about Vegas is that it takes about two days for me to feel like cr@p (sleep deprivation, secondhand smoke, not always the best food, etc...) which continues on for the remainder of my stay (usually seven to eight days) and for a few days after I get home. And I can’t wait to go back...lol. It’s just part of the experience. Not uncommon to return and say that I need a vacation to recover from my vacation...lol.
Started to review some of the policies I may need to know for my interview. Trying not to panic. There is SO MUCH information I’m feeling more than just a little overwhelmed. TBH, I don’t really care if I get it. I am just feeling a lot of pressure because I was told they are “excited” to interview me and I don’t want to disappoint anyone or look like an idiot. I have also looked at the behavioural competencies that they will likely ask me about and finding it pretty tough to come up with examples that seem to fit what they are asking about. I am sure I have done things that fit but my memory is just not as good as I need it to be. Sigh...
Gonna get a good night’s sleep and get myself to the gym at 5 a.m. Need to work some of the panicky feelings out of my system. (((HUGS))) to all!!
Hey DV- do you know any of the male semi pro pool players?
When I worked in the ICU, we had this very young local cop come to us. He was in septic shock and tried to die a few times. I was his requested night shift nurse so I had him every night I was on. Due to the sepsis, he lost a hand and foot...... however, we did bring him back to life. Pool was his passion. He learned to adapt, and has a bridge attachment for his hand!
He was on the show “hustlers” . I know he does tourneys in Vegas! Maybe you’ll see him there !
I’ve been there a few times as well myself. Last in 2012!
Started to review some of the policies I may need to know for my interview. Trying not to panic. There is SO MUCH information I’m feeling more than just a little overwhelmed. TBH, I don’t really care if I get it. I am just feeling a lot of pressure because I was told they are “excited” to interview me and I don’t want to disappoint anyone or look like an idiot. I have also looked at the behavioural competencies that they will likely ask me about and finding it pretty tough to come up with examples that seem to fit what they are asking about. I am sure I have done things that fit but my memory is just not as good as I need it to be. Sigh...
Gonna get a good night’s sleep and get myself to the gym at 5 a.m. Need to work some of the panicky feelings out of my system. (((HUGS))) to all!!
Yes to working out the nerves and don't forget to breathe. There is a reason they are excited to interview you, remember. xoxoxo
M 20+ T25+ S ~15.5 (BD) BD 4/6/15 D 12/23/16
"Someone I loved once gave me A box full of darkness. It took me years to understand, That this too, was a gift." ~ Mary Oliver
Hey Ginger. I don’t know anyone like that but I will keep my eye out for him. And btw... pool is a sport, not a hobby...lol.
Thanks Bttrfly. A good night’s sleep and a trip to the gym always helps. Decided there is no way I’m going to memorize policies and it should be good enough that I know they exist and I can refer to them when I need to. These government interviews are pretty tough. The person who scores the most points gets the job...doesn’t matter if they think you are the best fit. You only get marks for the things you say and if you forget to say them, even if you know them and they know you know them, you still don’t get the marks...and then you don’t get the job. I will keep studying and do my best the day of. At the end of the day, that’s all I can really do. Hopefully it will be enough.
Still no word from Brook since Saturday. I have resolved not to contact him unless he contacts me first. He really does seem to be going through something and I am not going to involve myself in it. He knows how to get a hold of me if he wants to. In the meantime, I am living my life. It is disappointing, to say the least, but I’ve been through WAY worse. If we are meant to get together, we will. If not, onwards and upwards...
Just chatted with Buddy on the phone. He said he helped out with Grade 8 boys basketball tonight and Brook was having a fun practice for his team right after. He also told me that Brook has been noticeably amped up in games (more reactive, yelling... got a technical foul three games in a row) and parents are starting to worry about his role modelling on the court and are talking about him. He then went on to say that he thinks something must be going on in Brook’s personal life because he isn’t usually like this. Uh...yeah...I told him that I think he is right about that but wasn’t going to give any details and Buddy is smart enough not to ask me.
I know that Brook would be upset to know about this...he loves coaching and is looking forward to coaching his daughter next year. Knowing the people involved though, I’m not sure anyone is going to say anything to him. I really hope I’m wrong and the athletic director gives him a heads up so he can make some changes...he’s been volunteering his time coaching for 11 years...I think they owe it to him to let him know there are concerns. Anyway...I haven’t heard from him and it’s not really my business so I’m staying out of it.
Exchanged a few texts with Jack today. He seemed a lot better and tells me he may be leaving the island for work after all. I told him I think that it is probably a good idea. I hope it works out for him.
do you think the AD will talk to him? Or will the parents ask for another coach? I think Buddy should say something. Better coming from a friend, but don't triangulate ... xoxoxo
M 20+ T25+ S ~15.5 (BD) BD 4/6/15 D 12/23/16
"Someone I loved once gave me A box full of darkness. It took me years to understand, That this too, was a gift." ~ Mary Oliver
I have no idea if the AD will talk to him...interestingly, he just added me as a Facebook friend...lol. Brook and Buddy know each other but they aren’t good friends so I doubt Buddy will say anything to him about it. Brook hasn’t been in contact with me since Saturday so at this point, I’ve pretty much written him off. Maybe one day I’ll hear from him and maybe I won’t. The one thing I know for sure is that he won’t be hearing from me so he’s on his own with this one. It’s disappointing but not much I can do about it.
XH texted me a picture of D12 dressed up for her Valentine’s Day dance tomorrow. Looks like she is wearing OW’s clothes. I noticed that there are a bunch of pictures of the two of them on the wall next to where D12 was standing. Made me a bit nauseated, TBH. How to legitimize an affair... Take a bunch of different pictures of the two of you and put them on the wall to try to make it look like you’ve been together for years. And my kids have to look at them every day. There are no words...
Pretty much going out of my mind trying to mentally prepare for my interview next week. The more I read up on the things I need to know, the less I feel like I know and the more panicky I get. Really struggling to think of good examples for the behavioural interview. Even ran one rather confusing competency by a couple of supervisors today and they were scratching their heads. Neither of them had any idea how they would answer it. The best they could say is to try to be crystal clear about my thinking. At this point, there is nothing crystal clear about my thinking. Is this even worth the extra $8,000 a year? Not so sure...lol.
