Goonies, I’m sorry that you are feeling this way. Like others have said, you have to start doing things for yourself first. Of course you are allowed to feel all the emotions that you’re feeling...it would be impossible to shut them down. But focus on yourself first. Keep thinking about what she’s doing will drive you nuts.
There was a period when I was really down. I went swimming. And when I was in the water I felt like I was going to drown in a pool of sadness. But I just kept going. Plus I was swimming with friends too, so that helped me a lot. Maybe try channeling all your negative emotions into something. I think exercising regularly is crucial to mental health.
Be strong and piece yourself back together. Do it for yourself, but I think the better you hold up, the less hate/disgust you’ll get from her. As to how to rebound from that when it happens- you make yourself better!!! Make a list of all the little things you can do everyday. Take a walk. Clean up the house. Do something nice for a stranger. Listen to music and dance. Smile even if you don’t want to. Read a book. You can do it.
