Journaling: ----------- W sent me a text today asking if I'd pick up the kids on Thurs after school. I replied no problem. She reminded me we had a mediation session in two days and if I was ready.
I told her - I wasn't inclined to share how I feel but I was disappointed that this whole situation feels like it's going to be handled in the courts, but, so be it. She stated she wanted to try to mediate and avoid going to court, and that she wanted me to try to communicate with her openly.
i stated I could not believe her responses to the interrogatories, that most were extremely hurtful and a vast majority were just not true.
I reiterated I wanted 50/50 custody, that the kids and I have had some great moments over the past couple of months, that I believe this is in their best interest, that my boss is allowing me to work from home most afternoons if I need to drive them around, and, if 50/50 doesn't work in practice, I am 100% happy to negototiate something that does. I reminded her that she is also working a few nights a week going forward for the next few months.
Her reply was: she does not want to disrupt the kids school schedule by having them switch houses weekly.
I am having a TON of anxiety of having to go to court and have to tell myself - this might actually be the path of getting them back.
We then spent some time divvying up the dog schedule and the furniture. I let a bunch of the furniture go with her, but it's just apparent that she is hard up for money. I wanted to say - please, get a full time job. Get one anywhere, a grocery store, as a janitor, anything.
The only thing I am to this selfish woman is a missing paycheck.
