things are back to space and time with W. I talked to her last Saturday because our S6 is still a bit sick with this super resilient flu that is taking over Spain and she told me she is not ignoring me but the thing is that I do not listen to her, I do not know what she means. I assured her I was making my best to listen to every word that comes from her given the very little contact we have and resumed to GAL and LRT thinking about my life without her.
The legal procedure is officially on hold but we have 60 days now to present an alternative to the separation agreement that has been officially rejected. I know this is only my selfish and unrealistic goal but I would like to, at some point and as one of those say it only once things, tell her my wish is for us to at some point work on the R and stop the legal procedure even if I have to provide her with the pension we agreed. Would that make me a doormat or a sincere husband who has not given up on this M? Is it something stupid to do? if not, how would you approach it?
Again, after the encouragement I got from this board I am not afraid of being divorced, heck I am not afraid of being alone either, I just want to be 100% involved in the lives of my children but I want to pass on that message to my W. I know, she already knows I am ready to work on our M. God this situation is so twisted, I want to be attractive again, I want to be happy on my own and heal emotionally but if by any miracle there is a chance for us to R in the future I also want it to be asap. No, I am not in a rush, I have nothing better to do now than to get rid of my flaws and being happy but I want to be with my children again. I guess if someone is going to understand the mess in my head now is you guys. I want to be attractive again, my very finest and best version, but I want my children to have me there and no is not entirely on my hands because I have a W in between who hates me now and seems to thing the children is something that she exclusively cares about.
thanks a lot for your help, when I finish reading Light her fire I am going to pick up DR again for a 4th time, I need more strength and support to keep going alone and accepting my M is over as I knew it (which is good believe me, M 2.0 is the goal now!)
Last edited by Pack_19; 02/10/2003:52 PM.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Me 29 W:29 M: 5yrs T:10yrs S:6 yrs S:1 yr BD: "I want a D" 08/09/19 Sep: 10/27/19
