Yail- You’re right. Post BD I do have to think and behave differently now, I forget that sometimes.
I am contemplating whether to invite H out for V day weekend. Sort of want to use it as an opportunity to say my piece and just be heard. (Funny I just wrote on wayfarer’s thread and said that I’ve written these letters that would seem pointless to send to H, but now I want to say something to H’s face)
“I think you said that you felt unappreciated last time we were together. I am sorry for all the times you felt unloved, undervalued, and unappreciated. I’d like you to know that it was never my intention to make you feel that way.”
“Whatever the future holds, I want you to find peace and happiness with or without me.” (I’m 100% sure that his reaction would to laugh and dismiss the idea at he can ever obtain either)
Or maybe I should just keep my mouth shut???
And then I think about where we would go. To a bar? A nice restaurant? I’d like to have a nice glass of wine. But I should probably not invite an alcoholic to have a drink with me? But why does it matter he’s going to drink anyway.
