Funny my H would say similar things about him not being here in the future. He would be cooking and telling the boys that they need to learn xyz so they know how to do it when he’s not around. He’s said stuff like that several times, as if he is either 1. going to be dead or 2. be outta our lives for good.
You might be confused about his behavior, but it sounds like he is even more confused about it himself. That’s what I think about my H too. I keep wanting to help him wipe his fogged up lenses for him, so that maybe he has chance of coming out of this....but I think I can’t, I think we LBS can’t, because only they can get out of the quicksand themselves.
I’ve written a few letters in the beginning thinking that I’d want to show H. Some were about me, some were about him. I’m glad I never did. Because with time my mentality has changed and I’m still seeing things differently or more clearly. And with time I also feel more strongly that he would not be receptive to anything from me. Not that he would be offended or anything, I think things would just get lost somewhere and my good intentions would not make it to his brain.
