Wayfarer: Accepting that he just does not care about me at all right now has been the hardest pill to swallow. And the even harder pill to swallow has been trying to justify why I am standing for a M with someone who does not care about my feelings. I have done nothing to him to justify his mean actions (other than maybe not being the life of the party, but he is not the life of the party either and never has been).

I am definitely experiencing situational depression. This is why it has been so difficult to get off the emotional roller coaster and not be affected by his actions. I am getting counseling and am under my doctor's care. Hopefully I can get out from under this fog with this help.

Last edited by HesAble; 02/09/20 05:45 PM.
H and Me - Both 45; S13 and D9
BD - 11/2019
Married 14 years; Together 20 years