I can't remember-- do you have friends or family you've confided in? This might be a good time-- if you have someone who will listen and can support you where you are without judgment-- to get together and vent. There is something about being with another human being who loves you and cares about you and is there for you no matter what and will listen that is so, so valuable... I finally told one very close friend what was going on after I learned about the PA portion and calling her is like medicine when I'm spinning.
I have confided in some close friends but found that only one encourages me to stand for the M. Now she is dealing with medical issues in her own family so I feel selfish calling her up with my issues. The others are encouraging me to take care of myself by getting rid of H.
H and Me - Both 45; S13 and D9 BD - 11/2019 Married 14 years; Together 20 years
