I don't know why this convo has me so broken up. It wasn't about any new information or particularly devastating info. Maybe because of my fear about him and my D losing their relationship. H is her dad for all intents and purposes. Her bio dad's parents and the money the state sends me from his paychecks are really her only connection to that other guy. Maybe because it makes me miss him or my old life more. Maybe because I feel like all these R talks are because we both know he's going in April for sure and because we're functioning on his accelerated I got run from my misery time line it's all getting piled on, quickly after a month of silence. I have no idea really, but I can't get myself together like at all. Why does him being nice and supportive affect me so much??
I'm not feeling wise at all lately, wayfarer, not like I have any insight to offer, but I empathize. These reasons you offer all make sense to me. I think it's even harder to process when we are surprised by our feelings surfacing. Not new info, not devastating info, but it seems like you did open yourself up here a little bit, in honestly saying you don't know how to navigate this situation. You were vulnerable, and he responded with, "I don't know how to respond to that." That's probably honest too, but not satisfying. It feels like another instance of being not quite strangers to me. A nice, supportive way of saying I'm here for you but not in the way I was before. Also "I don't know how to respond to that" = I don't have those kind of complicated feelings, but...
Not to say that is all what he's thinking or what he means, not trying to mindread, just reflecting on my own now, I guess, why some conversations affect me when I feel like they shouldn't. Crying-at-work days are the worst. (((wayfarer)))
Also, all of you who can watch Marriage Story, I salute you! I sobbed while watching the finale of The Good Place this week. Thought I'd be able to get through it.
