Gaslighting is a terrible thing. And she is gaslighting you hard.
Two things. One legal. One psychological.
Please tell me you've hired a lawyer. Personally I would stop all non-court ordered support. But you need a lawyer since this is all a legal proceeding now.
Second, please tell me you are in IC? Feeling bad. Being depressed. Feeling like a failure. No good comes from that.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018