Journaling ------------- I think I have some kind of depression. I just feel like a failure lately. A lot of things are cranking my anxiety up: the thought of going into child custody mediation knowing she wants full custody, any time I see a layer email in my Inbox.
I received my W's interrogatory answers back and she's denying the affair and claiming she has no knowledge of calling the OM's number, despite it showing up 400x on the cell phone bill. She also wants full custody of the kids.
She also claims I have no knowledge of the kids daily schedule and was never a hands on dad with the kids. That statement just blew my mind. I have always been a part of my kid's lives and 95%, have no problem running them around as needed. I don't think I've ever missed an event in their lives....I just cannot believe how much that statement has hurt me. It's made me mad enough to just not respond to any of her texts.
i kicked in a little more child support to help with gymnastics and I got a subsequent text from her: "Hope you got some sleep on your last fire station shift. Will there be any more money for gymnastics or is this it? Just trying to budget." I ignored it.
How was I ever married to this person?! i swear, I am nothing more than a missing paycheck.
I am just so sick of feeling this bad about things!!!!
