Absolutely, UR! I am making these choices based on what serves ME. Not what I can do in order the “catch and keep” in the past I was more focused on how not to lose the guy. Which is pretty much where every R has gone wrong. I realize it’s the biggest scar my ex left. I just felt like if someone walked away, it would be all my fault and something I did wrong and I had no confidence in myself in dating and relationships. Like I “must” not be doing the right things. When I do have sex, it’s because I want to and I’m ready. And yes, I do need an emotional connection now to make it enjoyable.
I simply cannot be afraid to lose anyone anymore and I have to be confident that if they walk away, it’s not because I did anything “wrong”.
So far something I really enjoy about E is that I feel so comfortable being myself. He is non judge mental. He can crack jokes and take jokes. I can just really be me around him. I could not do that with M. I was Me, but it didn’t feel comfortable. I always felt judged. Probably because he was judgy of everyone else.
I can’t wait to see what he has in store for tomorrow. I’m sure it will be a good time no matter what. A date on a Saturday night ?! I can’t believe it!
