So far, still no big change for the worse in H's behavior. He's texted me a couple of times with questions, I've waited a bit, answered briefly, and then when he replied again, resisted sending any more conversational/jokey replies back, which is normally what I would do. My mantra in those times when I want to reply is, "This is counterintuitive."
My coach said I am self-protecting quite a bit. Not a surprise to me, as it's clear I've been struggling with this! I said things like when H moves out, when H files. She encouraged me to try to stay in if mode rather than when. (Kind of like hope vs. expectation, I see.)
I'm trying to decide what I'd like to do for myself on Valentine's Day. We never made a big deal out of the day, but H was always way more romantic than I was. I will miss his little gestures next week. No good movies playing! A dark theater and popcorn sounds kind of good though, so I might cave and see something anyway. I did buy a vase I've been eyeing for flowers.
