Cross countries separation EU

[Pack_19]

hi all,

had a bad day yesterday, one of my wisdom teeth is pushing out and I could not sleep all night. Worst thing is I spent hours thinking about all the things my W told me home during our domestic separation. The way she started hiding her life from me and telling me things as that I am not the one she wants to be hugged by. I know I cannot fall into these thoughts but it was just a rough night and I ended up feeling broken and discouraged. Then I remembered rule 33. Do not give up no matter how dark it is or how bad you feel.

I spoke to my children again today, both are cured from the bad flu they had. This means I got sick but also managed to get them back on track and that makes me happy. I have almost everything set for the move to Spain and I keep going out to build that social life without her but oh boy this is hard. I have started wearing my ring again, my friends find it pathetic but I do not care and sad as it sounds I still havent fully accepted my marriage is over (I am working on that) but at least the space I am giving her is again as if there was an ocean between us.

When I get back to Spain I am going to take my children costume shopping and I plan to throw a party for the new house there just with the two of them. I see no progress in my W but I will keep doing my thing.

thank you all