Jac12, job, and AnotherStander thank you so much for these reality checks. This forum really is great. You are all right, that date was not a good idea. I will admit it made me feel great in the moment, but that is not fair to another person. I have canceled that date.
I need more time to become that man my wife would regret not being married to. With that said, I am going to continue working on those things for myself.
I know Steve said if she all of sudden turned around and wanted to work on this marriage I would be over the moon, but I just don't feel that way at all. At this point I just can't see how I would ever want to be back with her.
I'm certainly not looking to move on to marriage number 3 anytime soon though.