Riding the Wave 2

[may22]

Wayfarer, wooba... this is weird. I saw that off-ness in my H (in retrospect now it started in the beginning months of his A
a couple of years ago). I so clearly remember starting MC with him the first time and he was so cold and remote and weird about so many things and I wondered who this person was who looked like my H but inside was someone else?

That off-ness is gone. It went away sloooowly, probably starting six months ago, then faster as things started to come to light. I would say in the last few weeks, since (a) he told me the full scope of their A and (b) we slept together-- not sure if the latter has anything to do with it but since it started again the same night as the last BD it is hard to separate-- he feels back. We connect again as friends and it doesn't feel forced. That being said, he's sad, confused, so so torn, not in love with me, very well may leave me etc... but that weirdness is gone (at least for now). Not sure what that means. Probably nothing. I do know that the lying was really, really weighing on him and maybe getting that off his chest has made a big difference for him.

Wayfarer, seeing the discernment counselor sounds like a great plan-- let us know how it goes. I have my first IC appointment next week.