Get a hot personal trainer? Would an eye candy be sufficient?? Lol. In my gym I think the majority of female customers pay for a trainer to have someone cute to talk to. It’s like 90% talking and 10% working out. It always makes me giggle when I see them. Where I live the dating pool looks pretty hopeless. Not that I’m open to dating now but I wouldn’t even be able to fantasize about such a thing given the reality...
Maybe get one of those rabbit vibrators if you don’t have one already for self-help.
We gotta be creative these days!!!!
Well due to where I live most of the being out involves being in bar-ish or bar adjacent places. I've gotten my flirt on. I'm capable. Which feels good, because I wasn't sure I still had it in me. But no plans on acting on it further than that, which makes me feel superior to my H, I know petty, but whatever. Attention isn't really what I'm lacking.
I'm already very covered in the self help area...lol. I have a super high drive. Like one depression and/or anti-depressants couldn't kill. Never met a man yet who could keep up. H was the closest and he still couldn't. It was a source of contention in our MR occasionally. So I'm guessing you can tell my #1 love language is physical touch. So as much self help as I can give myself, I miss so much more than that. I miss hugging him. I miss holding his hand in the car. I miss holding him because he liked to be the little spoon like a weirdo. I miss him rubbing my butt at night before I'd fall asleep. I miss him propositioning me in weird places just to see my reaction. I miss his smell. I miss him running up on me when I'm not paying attention and smacking my butt. I miss our Saturday mornings in bed. I miss falling asleep on his chest when my insomnia won't let me fall back asleep. I miss the way he used to look at me. The one compliment the one time is the only nice thing he's said to me about me in months. All of this is why I'm starting to feel a little desperate. And having an IC who is still continuing to question me standing just over 12 weeks into this isn't exactly helping me find ways to deal with missing him other than telling myself that he isn't that person any more, and she's got nothing other than what a 1970s Cosmo suggests for the lack of being touched like a woman parts.
