I suppose that's why validation is so essential, so you can empathise a bit, not just roll your eyes inwardly but understand that there is some deep reason behind them feeling so pathetic and victimised. Goodness knows feeling like a victim has been my main struggle in this whole time, especially as I see my mum has always done that.
I'm having a hard day today, feeling overwhelmed by everything I should do, all the hustling I need to do for career stuff, all the domestic things which feel never-ending. I really want to confide all this to H, but I cannot trust him and do not feel safe with him, and he obviously does not feel safe with me (or himself, probably and most importantly). I feel lonely and unloved and it is just so very hard right now.
Maybe I should go back to IC? A different, more solution focused one. I will do so if I continue to struggle. In the meantime I will make myself a plan, do some exercise, tick some things off my many lists and do a yoga video.
At least spring is slowly approaching, it always lifts the spirits to see the spring bulbs starting to stir
