Journaling -------------- So - Fri night both kids stayed with me. Saturday, my daughter had other plans. My son was a little leary on staying over by himself without his sister. I told him we could do dinner and movie and he could bring a friend. He loved it and I spent Fri and Sat just validating them and enjoying them.
Sunday was ok. I ended up having dinner with a nurse (friend of a friend). We parted ways right before the start of the SuperBowl and, rather then go to a bar, I stayed home and hung with the dog.
How I am feeling: ----------------------- 1) I felt really good about the kids.
2)The wife's initial interrogatories from my lawyer came back Fri and my lawyer made a remark that "you're (ie - me) probably extremely upset after reading them, and that is understandable.' I haven't read them yet, but, after reading that, now I am actually feeling anxious/scared to!!!
Part of me is thinking the document could state - "the W actually had 25 boyfriends before we split. Ooops. Sorry." Another part of me is thinking she has something on me, twisted from our past. I just wish my lawyer would say - "yea, she's a cheater and everything you suspected was true."
3) I am wanting to date someone. I know, LH19, NOT READY YET. Female validation is a serious drug for me that I am trying to shake. It's seriously difficult. I like the man I am becoming but I would like someone else sitting in this house with me besides the dog. Maybe I look for a roommate.
Odd thing is that, ocassionally, I am actually starting to really like being alone. Everything is a good idea. Oreos at 2am? Sure. Listen to Metallica at 330am? Sure.
