Yes, I plan to just keep acting the way I have been without skipping a beat. I hope this doesn’t prompt a talk from him. It is bringing up some frustration in me that his attitude post-BD seemed to be that the SSM was solely my problem, as if both of us weren’t responsible for communicating needs/desires and figuring out how to meet them together. But that’s to be expected, right? Everything he brought up was pretty much blaming me for his unhappiness.
Can anyone offer me a little perspective check on these stories I’m telling myself? I’m telling myself he doesn’t seem depressed right now like he has for the last several months. My inclination is to doubt the last 16 years and the love I felt from him (I know I didn’t imagine it! Yet...) His friendliness toward me lately has nothing to do with his desire for D, which, based on his reaction to my move, is unchanged. He feels nothing toward me. My inclination is to read his lack of interest as a reason to give up hoping he could feel and understand things differently in the future, but feelings change. But my biggest takeaway from this should be that I am brave and more confident and capable of change. Maybe he will see that at some point too, but it is important that I see it.
