Newlywed and in crisis

[funbun]

I feel better these past few days compared to last week. Feeling less lonely and was able to focus better on the things in my life and work. Started going to the gym again and had a few outings with friends. I don't get as many headaches from thinking about all of this.

I have all the time in the world right now. Life is quieter, but at least it's peaceful.

You might find - I don't know, only sharing from experience here - that once you work on your own issues - anxious attachment, control (perhaps) and anything else that comes up for you as a result of this journey - you will change, and what your W has to offer you will no longer be something you want. I think that's roughly where I am at in my journey now - and it isn't particularly pleasant. Don't be too surprised if once you've done your own growing, your wife's immaturity becomes more unattractive to you.

I agree Alison. I get turned off when I think back to all the rejection and cold treatment that W has done to me. And she's still doing it now! It's crazy to think that I was able to put up with all of that before this. I should have been the WAS! lol. If W wants to come back, it has to be better and I should not accept anything less than I deserve.