(((Oceangirl))) This kind of a situation is tough enough as it is without adding sickness to it. I wish I had a solution to what ails you but sadly, I do not. Just know that there are many of us on this board who have been there and are sending you positive healing thoughts and are happy to have you lean on us.
Reading your words really hit home for me. I remember just how miserable and hopeless I felt when I was in your position. I wouldn’t wish that on my worst enemy. It felt like it was never going to end and the only thing that kept me going, really, were my beautiful kids...and this board. Keep posting...it does help. I go back and read my posts from when I first joined and it is amazing how far I have come, sometimes in spite of myself. I know it feels like the pain is never ending, limbo is the worst, but it does get better with time.
Don’t beat yourself up for your outburst. It happens to the best of us. You are dealing with a lot. Be kind to yourself.
