Stranger In My House Part 2

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I have been feeling more in control of my emotions the past day or so. I am realizing that life is short and that I cannot allow H's behavior to make all my days bad ones.

I have added more items to my list of things I can do starting now and/or if things do not work out with H. That list is really doing good things for my spirits! I highly recommend it to anyone going through this type of crisis. It gives hope and something to look forward to even in dire circumstances.

So...am I putting the cart before the horse if I start packing up the house? If this M falls apart, we will need to sell the house. No better time to sell than over the summer before the kids start school. I don't want to have to rush to pack and would rather pack all along over the course of the next few months. Also H has made me feel so unstable that, even if we stay together, I really would rather be in a smaller home that I can comfortably afford without help or struggle whether he walks or stays. Will it send a bad message if I bring in boxes and start decluttering and packing? It will keep me busy and help avoid a mad rush months from now. I do worry that this may upset the kids, although I have mentioned the possibility of moving to them in passing.