Sounds like you connect with the plane crash analogy. I too am around five years out from the end of my marriage. It is incredible how much transpires in a few short years. I hear you on wanting to save your marriage and I did as well initially. Perhaps it was easier for me in that my ex completely took a crap on me and left me with no uncertainty as to her feelings or the lack thereof for me. Her absence of compassion during my treatment was shocking at the time and if I could influence someone in the same boat as she, thinking of leaving, try to pretend for a period of time and help the person with whom you have had a lot of years with and perhaps share children.
I have dated a little more than you but I have had nothing resembling a relationship. I have made a couple of great friends however. I wonder sometimes if I am being too choosy or if I am keeping up a wall......I am very much open to a relationship and I feel that I would marry again if I found someone wonderful. I want to make sure that I am ready for that and that the lady I take interest in is ready as well.
Mark
M:53 W:47 M:15 years. S:18 S's: 30 & 28 from previous marriage. BD: 3/14 Divorced January 17.