I had a small victory today but I dont want to get too high on expectations so I will write it here and continue as if nothing happened. My W called me today to tell me the medication our little one is taking. I listened to all and focused 200% on what she had to tell me. Once she was finished I told her I need to pick up the keys from our old house that she kept and asked to go for a walk this weekend. She replied that she will be out all weekend (better than the old I am not going to see you), I said I understood wished her a good day and hanged up.
Minutes later she wrote to me to tell me some details and I made the mistake of asking if she would be up for early dinner out today. She read it, ignored it as always, I was ready to distance myself again and continue my LRT when minutes later she replied "today I cant". I thanked her and wished her a good weekend and good rest.
Now I know she did not say yes, I should have not said a word about meeting and she might still be very angry with me. But the thing is that to me the fact that she answered is a baby step, how sad but true! It has been 12 weeks since she left home and I thought by now she would be much more calm. I am giving her space to the point that she is not in my life and I am not in hers and I guess that is "working".
Again, no expectations and getting ready for the worst I just felt like I needed to share it. Finally I am starting to listen to you guys, finally I am starting to see the man I want to be when I look into the mirror and my goal is to be the man any woman would be a fool to leave behind. I could not imagine I needed the space and time as much as she does to really make changes happen. Thank you all, I will keep posting and working on myself.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Me 29 W:29 M: 5yrs T:10yrs S:6 yrs S:1 yr BD: "I want a D" 08/09/19 Sep: 10/27/19