Divorce and Acceptance part 5

[Pax_luv]

Thanks Own. I hear ya, I’m definitely not trying to borrow trouble. I think I’m on edge and like any little thing is triggering me. With this latest curveball, we need to issue new discovery and I know ex won’t be happy. Not my problem.

I usually pop in here when I need to process my thoughts and feelings and today is one of those days.
It’s been a sad week. There was a suicide at work which was shocking and I just found out my friends husband passed away and i am gutted for her. These are not my problems but I’m just sad for those involved. Grief is such a tough thing to process and I feel for those who must embark on that journey. It’s a long, hard road.

I feel for my friend especially. The world is just a sad place right now. Her hubby was one of the good ones. A big burly mans-man, but oh my gosh did he love his wife and family. He was ill, but this was completely unexpected.

Its just strange because I was thinking of my friend this morning on the way to work. I was going to text her and check on her and see how her hubby was recovering.

She was the one who wanted me to keep standing for my marriage. She and her hubs were married a long time, had their share of problems and challenges, but they made a commitment to keep going. She kept telling me it was the best decision she ever made. And, I think, because they persevered, they had a stronger relationship. I mean, they are #relationshipgoals. So much love and respect for each other and the life they have built and it was so genuine. His passing is a huge loss for them, and so many others actually.

Also, today is my engagement anniversary. I didn’t actually remember- Facebook reminded me. I will always remember how ex was like... “let’s just get this over with” as he was taking me to the place where he wanted to propose. So honestly, I was comparing my situation to theirs this morning because it was on my mind and I just feel/felt sad about it. I go through phases where I just feel so unloved and I have to keep reliving it with this lawsuit.

Anyway, those are the thoughts going through my mind. And as always, it’s just a reminder to never ever take for granted those around us. They could be gone in the blink of an eye. Its just so sad.