Ah yes faking is a good tactic, and as OG says you do start to believe that you are enjoying it. I have gone and sat in wine bars on my own, just so I can come home from work 2 hrs late! And at the same time realised how nice it was to relax on my own, in a bar and get some me time. When he is working away and calls me I pretend I’ve had a great evening even if all I’ve done is stare blankly at the ceiling, feeling numb or torn apart. Keep going!
Honestly, we really do deserve oscars for some of our faking performances!!!
The key is that eventually it is no longer an act. At first, yes, but then it becomes the new norm. Of course, it doesn't really work until it becomes the new norm. Which is why LBSs need to intestinal fortitude to stick it out until then, and not give up on it while it is still an act.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
