Through The Storm III

[KristinG]

May,

It does feel oddly peaceful. I have been working so hard to come to a place of understanding and peace. Don't get me wrong, I want to reconcile with my WW and spend the rest of my life with the person that I feel compliments me and my life (goals, hobbies, dreams, etc).

SamCal,

I almost died laughing with your analogy from Billy Madison. The whole scene played in my head as I read it. Thank you for an uplifting, enjoyable moment. No timeline. She just said that she thought that it would be good for her to be alone without either one of us. I made an off-handed joke that if she made a decision to come back to me that I expect some next-level romantic gesture. I'm talking "Say Anything" boombox-above-the-head, riding into the sunset on a lawn mower, fist in the air to an eighties ballad romance. She found this hysterical and endearing.

It's been really difficult to start this new journey. I wanted so desperately to text her goodnight and good morning. I made it through both of those, however, and I'm still standing. It's one moment at a time for me, but it will be ok. She has texted several small things throughout yesterday and once this morning. I did respond, but not until several hours later and just to answer her questions. I really want to respect what she expressed as her needs.

KG