Cross countries separation EU

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hi Sandi,

Thanks a lot for your message. I guess is still strikes me to my bones that this can be the end. I want my family and my M back and I know for that I need to change, I also know the only way to change and grow is to become at peace with your past, your mistakes, the areas where you can/must grow and the fact that your happiness lies within you.

I am 100% up for the move because of my children, even if all things come to a D I will be there for them, in their lives, in their routine, having fun with them and helping when they need me. These 4 past months focused on my W and the separation feels like I have let myself drift away from the lives of my children. That is not me, no matter what happens they will know they have a strong father who will be there for their happiness and growth.

Turns out when W called me the other day was to tell me both C have a fever and need to stay with her mom. She has been polite I would say the last 2 times we spoke over the phone. Who knows, maybe me sacrificing my career and salary to be back in Spain counts as an act she appreciates. I dont know, I have no expectations and I do not want to celebrate this as a victory but I can for sure celebrate there has been no fury call about my lawyer stopping the juridical process. We are officially on hold until I am in Spain and can see the dynamics of my new job.

Day after day as I socialize more and more it feels as if she is not there in my life. Of course she is not but you all know what I mean, I guess this is the kind of healthy space she needs from me. I am wearing the ring, I have not contacted her since we had that terrible argument when I was in Chicago, I feel healthier than ever and able to change. Next goal, keep spirits up in front of W, I have still failed there so far.

Thank you all for the help and again GAL like a madman