Through The Storm III

[KristinG]

Hey guys. I have been a little M.I.A. for the last week and just needed a breather. I feel like it is a good idea to take a few days away from the forum to recharge mentally.

Quick update.

WW wants to do NC/limited contact. She claims this is NOT to be with OW. I handled it as calmly and rationally as I could. Water off a duck's back. I told her that I will respect what she wants, and that she knows my desires if anything changes for her. WW kept reiterating that she feels she has to pay some sort of penance for hurting me and that she also wants these things (NC) from OW. It's almost like she wants to put herself into self-imposed exile.

I don't know how I feel but I'm afraid it could all just be a reason so that she and OW can be together. I'm learning to let go either way. I know in my heart I cannot control what she does. In my heart, I have done everything I can do to save us. She has to want the same things.

The only time I got a tad bit emotional was when WW told me that OW said that she had never given me (the faithful wife) time to move on from our marriage. I don't know why, but it enraged me. I did not express the rage and kept that awful emo monster in her cage. I handled all of it pretty well - cried a little, told her my fear of when I respect her decision and don't respond to her that she will think I have given up on us. Silly fear, but valid. I hope you are all doing well and I will try and catch up tonight and tomorrow.

KG