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[Pommy99]

You sound like you are doing great at detaching and GAL .

Haha nope - but I'm good at faking it! I smile and head out and try my best to be happy while I'm out, but my heart is breaking on the inside. Then I come home upbeat and happy.

I'm torn, because in reading DR, it talks about looking for the signs that what you're doing is working - he's more engaged with me than he has been in months, so that's a sign. But then he flips the script and talks about S/D. It's almost like when he tells me that he hasn't changed his mind, that he's trying to convince himself of that, not me.

Ah yes faking is a good tactic, and as OG says you do start to believe that you are enjoying it. I have gone and sat in wine bars on my own, just so I can come home from work 2 hrs late! And at the same time realised how nice it was to relax on my own, in a bar and get some me time. When he is working away and calls me I pretend I’ve had a great evening even if all I’ve done is stare blankly at the ceiling, feeling numb or torn apart. Keep going!