Patience and Limbo (Core thread 3)

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Thanks for the support Ovr, LH and HJ. It's unfathomably difficult to stay positive in this. Seeing the feedback helped today. Hard to become more secure while facing my sitch everyday.

Reading more on attachments, it appears my W is Disorganized. Makes sense with what she's been through and has said to me. If I'm not secure myself, she has little chance to heal. Our relationship is not healthy. I wonder the impact on the kids.

This make DBing harder...if she is disorganised, it seems me being home and stable could help her along with showing signs of caring. I wonder if DB techniques work for this type.

I'm getting hit with feeling alone this week. All my friends, coworkers all talk to their wives, are taking vacations and mine has forgotten she has a wedding ring and a husband who does more than bring in money. All these couples happily exercising at the gym and my W is home ignoring that there is a problem.

I guess just journaling here. I should be hopeful as we are talking more, doing things together, right? I still cant tell if its a reconcile or a false start. Making a 5 year plan together, maybe shes saying shes ready while avoiding the conflict as a disorganized would.