I just read through your thread-- you are doing great! I had one thought though for you that maybe you can only see when you read through everything start to finish... it seems like every time he opens up or turns toward you a little, within in a day or two you turn up the pursuit a little too strong, he backs away, you are disappointed, there is some distance, and then the cycle starts all over again. It seems like you are possibly entering this cycle again-- can you challenge yourself to respond differently? Like if you do see him at the event or the running group, have fun, PMA, whatever, but drop any expectations (and definitely don't ask or call or text) about him coming over? If he does, have fun, say bye! when he goes and don't call or text him afterwards? Have a plan to call a friend instead, or write out the text but don't send it, or whatever... Just restrain yourself.
I think it is the hardest to drop expectations when they are starting to show interest, but that is also probably the most important time. You may have read on other threads about the squirrel or cat or whatever skittish animal comes over to you-- the last thing you want to do is grab it and freak it out forever. You calmly sit there and do your thing.
You got this!!
Me (46) H (42) M:14 T:18, D9 & D11 4/19 - 12/19: series of escalating BDs 9/20 - present: R and piecing
